This week, I will take a risk by opening up and telling you what is going on in my head lately. As my departure date gets closer I am feeling pretty overwhelmed and unprepared. It seems like no matter how hard I try, I can’t get everything done. I am not training as much as I would like. The mapping is not yet complete. I do not have enough funds to see me through the end of this journey. And I am struggling to keep up with all of the emails, phone calls and details pertaining to the fundraising and logistics. My work has also been suffering and I am going completely broke. I try to tell myself that in order to do something huge like this, a person has to make sacrifices. But what if I fail? I feel like in the public eye, the only thing that matters is the world record. I am aware that a million different things that are completely out of my control could make the record impossible. An injury, a big storm, detours etc. The brunt of my stress, expenses and preparation for this trip all revolve around the stupid record. I have to get expensive GPS trackers and equipment and pre-plan and program the route into a computer. I have 9 documents to sift through that tell me what my requirements are for documentation and collecting notarized signatures along the way. I feel like I am collapsing. I am telling this to the world in hope of getting some helpful feedback. I am doing my best and I fear that my best will not be good enough. Thank you for listening to me. Next week I will resume being positive, but just this once I needed to come clean and pour my heart out for a minute. I will update the training log later..I am up to 116. Miles for this week but I will be going out for a second run this afternoon.